Diet can't be a reason to listen to insulting

Book Info
2 stories about eating
Mo Yan
diet can’t be a reason to get complaint

Intro of the book about diet

This book is about the writer himself, especially his eating habits.
diet can be a style of someone but can be a debatable issue depending on the situation.
It shouldn’t be targeted as harassing because it is privacy.
However, sometimes it can be issued by someone’s reaction who suffers controversy.
If that one is weak to defend itself, it can be targeted easily by many hyenas.

People can catch the smell of weak person, which has no self-respect attitude by itself

There is a book titled [Emotion Class] by Shinju Kang, a very famous philosopher in Korea
That is about a book that allocated each chapter of the book based on 48 types of emotions by Spinoza’s theory.
In each chapter, one book is recommended as a proper book to explain a specific emotion in each chapter.
Mo Yan’s book is recommended for a chapter [Gluttony]
This book is exactly one chapter of the book about Chinese writers’ short stories.
So that is very short, almost 20 to 25 pages in my memory.
I knew the topic of the book wasn’t about eating patterns or styles.
Rather, it is closer to the topic of how to react to other negative feedback from your habit or behavior.

When I speak frequently about desire. when I have a Gluttony-like strong desire against accomplishment.
At the time, I want many things to have such as fame, economic success, and business growth like things.
I think the reason why I had a strong desire was I didn’t have anything.
I felt a similarity between gluttony as a topic of the book and me that lives for pursuing my desire.
Because that is just an action to fulfill my empty aspect.
Like the topic of gluttony, I wonder what the feeling is about focusing on something deeply until can’t control myself.

This book treats Mo Yan’s gluttony habit composed from his childhood.
But, I went out of sight of Mo Yan and his relationships more than Mo Yan’s childhood.
They always criticize his dining style without reserve. Mo Yan also feels guilty about his own behavior.
Without correlation about gluttony, I thought all evaluation from both sides was related to his own self-esteem.
For example, I thought just a simple apology was the proper level of expression about Mo Yan’s behavior when he got negative feedback.
However, Mo Yan showed too much reaction. Besides, he hurt himself mentally in his heart.
Even in front of the worst case of negative feedback, he just said a weak complaint to his mother about his sadness.
Exactly, I can see his attitude to avoid uncomfortable moments than weakness.

Mo Yan’s evaluation from another one. I caught most important factor of feedback or evaluation is the level of self-esteem.
In his novel, Mo Yan felt shame himself by using the expression he can’t separate himself whether he is a dog or a pig.
Sometimes he tried to eat a proper amount to edit his bad habit by himself.
Of course, he eats the same as any other time depending on the situation.
However, his all relationships always criticize his behavior in any case.
For example, they said Mo Yan doesn’t keep dining manners at all if he shows his gluttony-related aspect.
On the other hand, they said also badly if Mo Yan tries to eat the proper amount like he just mimics courtesy on the surface.
At that point, I realized Mo Yan was just a toy from them. They recognized him as a target to tease.
Or, he was used as stress releasing tool.
Mo Yan also behaved wrong in the dining place but they use that situation not to criticize his behavior.

As your level of self-esteem gets weak, you can be targeted by bad people clearly.
Their smell tracking ability is developed well so you can’t avoid your weakness from their nose.
Besides, everything can be a reason to attack whatever you do because they look down on you.
Whether you try to behave properly or behave something in your own way, they won’t stop that.
Someday, Mo Yan doesn’t care about other people’s feedback at all. He eats like a hungry beggar.
I thought he also hated himself to care about another one’s saying too much. So he did that on purpose.
At that time, one of his relationships said “Mo Yan is cute when he eats something”.
This praise is the only positive expression in this book for Mo Yan.
I think the key point of self-esteem is included in this short scene.
The answer was just accepting him as himself whether his behavior is controversial or not if that isn’t giving harm to other people.
When he doesn’t care about another eyesight, so when other people catch the aura of his self-esteem, Criticism will be removed.
On the other hand, in my reading, I understood why Mo Yan was targeted by other people. that was too much in my looking at.
So, I learned we need self-education to become wise people in thinking and behavior.
Too much isn’t good for a mutual relationship. So we need control partially.
I felt the inspiration I got impact with this short page amount.

The original definition of drinking desire in the book: When you find your own animal aspect.
20th Aug 2020. (After reading this chapter, re-definition): eating and owning desires that can’t be controlled even though paying attention not to do.